so here i am again. it's been the tenth of Ramadhan already. see how time flies. and so many things had happened these days. therefore that's the reason as to why i've not been constantly updating this.

anyway, i had three out of four examinations already and i'm soooo dead. this time the examinations was such a murderer. many have been complaining to me about how they attempt badly in their exams then, whats more me? so now i am left with my last exam which will held on wednesday.

other then examinations, i've been constantly going out. to study and more to have fun. ok. i am finding trouble for myself.

today's uncle birthday. i've not even wish him until this hour. what a bad niece, i am. which that reminds me of my late grandmother and grandfather. sometimes i could feel their presence.

NENEKKKK.. TOKKKK.. ONY RINDU!

after a full three days straight to school for studying session with my friends, i finally take a day off today. the reason why i'm being a hardworking girl to go to school to study is because, i've tried studying at home myself but you know, i end myself up scribbling things like 'NOLAN!' or even katy perry's song lyrics to my pieces of past year exam revision paper.

so that's why. i'm a jerk at studying by myself. i need at least someone to sit beside me and scold me to study. hee!

i had a meet up with black knights once again in the evening. aizat and bhai tagged us along. we dinner-ed at rasa 21 so i chose to have their wanton noodle. and i don't wanna say it's not nice but.....i don't like it. hee! i'm just being nice not to criticize it. maybe it really doesn't suite my taste or maybe i've ate a lot from home before i met them. so, i'm really not saying that it's not nice.

and by then, we have our crappy moments together again.



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and to think about it again, i shouldn't have bragged about i-don't-wanna-be-one-of-the-boys. infact, i should thank Allah for having them to cheer my every days. not all girls got the opportunity like me.

as heard from my girl friends, most of them prefer befriend-ing with group of boys just because they thought that boys are fun to hang out with. which i really thought so too now. hee!

it's 12:20am which clearly means that now is already monday. so i've spent my weekends very well again. saturday with muskiest plus Haz and fyQah's sister for some time. and as for sunday, i spent quality times with siblings since our parents went 'honeymoon-ing' to Johor.

well, i had marvelous time with muskiest the whole of last saturday. we karaoke-d for five hours and nope, we didn't lose our voice. it was fun when you know, it's an 'all girls' outing so we're more then crazy singing out loud, dancing to the beat and be ourselves.

look out for pictures on my multiply account! oh oh! i got a youtube account too now. well, up till now, i only got videos of me and bestfriends melalak-ing at karaoke. haha. but eh, i'm not showcasing our 'great talent' on singing but to share with you how we spent our lovely fun times together. please don't leave those videos bad comments if you happen to drop by my youtube account ok?

alright. as for my sunday, me and my siblings spent time on what? karaoke please! seriously ok, it's our new hobby now even though i know our voices are not great. this time we went to our all time favourite, bedok central cash studio! =D

and i sang bila rindu again which it reminds me of Muhammad Firdaus cause the last time i went karaoke-ing with him is when we duet to that song. which i know my voice sucks real bad that time. hehe! i am uploading some videos, and i'll definitely upload the bila rindu song i sang with Irwan.

i must have been crazy. i haven't even touch on what-to-study for tomorrow's common test and yet i have time to blog eh. seriously, i am not in a mood for study session right this minute.

a very well time spent with Atiqah after school yesterday. i hitched on Atiqah's ride all the way from Bedok to ECP and back to Bedok. we karaoke-ed till dawn. then ate till we're full. was totally awesome. macam pondan! haha.

so we took more videos then pictures. i only manage to snap 3 pictures using my phone camera cause i didn't bring my camera along as the battery was total flat.

my turn next please. Allah please grant my wish!

okay. my main intention to use this laptop is to work on my piling e-quizzes i have not done since the very start of term two. well okay. actually i've not been focusing well for lectures, tutorials and even practicals since then.

see la! even now i use my time to blog. okay actually i've attempted 3 out of 20 questions for 1 of the 3 quizzes i'm supposed to do and then when i click on 'submit' for the 3rd question, the page leads me to the login page. tell me how can i not rebel and do something else like what i am doing right this second?

it's making me like having this "semangat satu minit" je tau!

anyway, i have lessons from 3pm to 6pm later. and i don't feel like going. but too bad, i got to. cause i've been skipping this lesson a lot and i've missed so many things and i've no idea how the hell i'm gonna catch things up.

so Munzir left me a comment on facebook asking when will our common test be held. then i was like oh shit i got common test! and browse through my SMS from Ahmad who keep me updated about test date and so on. so i replied Munzir "14th(fri) at 4:30pm" then checked my calender and it shocked me so bad cause it's this freaking friday. so i add in more words telling him i don't know what to study and all.

my regrets for attending that lesson for only 3 times. i started the fire, i got to extinguish it myself.

but on a brighter note, i can't wait for tomorrow! yeeeeehhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

and so i've moved again after years i've been using evenifit-killsme.bs

"even if it kills me" sounds the strength i have in me to overcome every circumstances in life. so i decided to change to radinshazwani.bs cause i know i don't have the strength and i just wanna be exactly what i am now.

a girl who can mix with anyone and everything, with no superpowers to destroy what i dislike, but only with a heart and desire to live and love what's coming in near future.

and uhh, i also wanna blend well with the boys i've always been with for the past few months but without complaining to other people how i feel like i am so one of the boys. it's difficult cause when i'm with those boys, i seriously feel like i'm one of them. i've been laughing/burping out loud. eeew! and yes, i ate a lot. and those boys don't. frustrating right?

i just wanna be a simple, plain good girl. hee!

anyway, i don't link people and i don't put up tagboard. i make this blog sound like it's private but nope, it's not. everyone is free to know and share how i live my life today, tomorrow and thereafter.

i have a multiply account to share pictures. basically means that i won't be troubling myself pasting countless pictures here like how i did to my old blog. so i'll just keep you updated with words like "check out my multiply for pictures!" followed by the links to my multiply account. that's if i got pictures to share la! simple?

please be kind and say yes.

so click this to my multiply account. i have pictures the time i spent with bestfriends karaoke-ing on last saturday and just yesterday, we went to Noriz's brother wedding.

anyway, i'm a busy girl. i'll try and keep this updated whenever i'm free.