that four letter word leads me asking him about his past. about why he can simply move on while i can't. maybe i can and am moving on but something just stop me from doing so. it's like half of me wants me to be the best of me. while another half of me just wants me to stay guilty and keep dwelling about my past relationship.
we had our piece. each of our own.
i told him i've tried and am still trying. i guess he's right. i'm in a confusion state. i even told him i don't deserve to be loved. i'm such a pain, a heartbreaker, a sad story. and all he asked for is to forget my past and to turn over a new leaf. and he's willing to help me for a brighter future.
now i don't feel stupid. i gotta make my mark. and this time i'm gonna run it hard.
