last night, i am too happy to have let myself turned in early without worrying of anything.
tonight, my eyes are still wide open, swollen.
i don't know what i've just said and done. i can't think well, let alone leaving my dead brain cells to have made such decision. i feel like every single thing is pressuring me.
it's my own life i am dragging others to deal with. i hurt someone so terribly. i am really an ungrateful one. i am stupid. veryvery stupid.
to you, if you're here, i am wholly sorry for saying harsh words without even thinking of your feelings. if you're willing to deal anything with her just for me, oh please be my vip.
